ok, so the big thing is that muslims(as i presume) want to build a mosque near ground zero.. now in this country we have freedom of religion..so first off tough shit. 2nd off if we refuse this mosque it shows how bigoted this country really is. we all say equal rights and freedom..well thats not how shit is going down. Not all Muslims are bad people.. yes we are at “war” with muslim radicals which you know..doesnt sount much different when the Catholics or christians went around killing everyone who disagreed with them. If the U.S is refusing to allow a Muslim place of Worship built then all other places of worships (churches, temples, etc..) should be demolished, i’m atheist i could make the same statement as americans are making. i find it offensive. but in reality im sure more americans find it annoying which is how i find religion. but. all in all. if muslims want to build a mosque by ground zero. let them. would this be any different if the place of worship was a church?

so today i went to a family thing, and i had a conversation with someone who shall remain anynomous(sp?) anyhow, we were talking and i told her how i grew up very isolated which is kinda true. i’m an only child and i was getting in trouble a lot, and i don’t like to go to family events. not because its my family but because…i don’t know how to socialize. i grew up in a poor neighborhood even tho i got everything i wanted..now..i don’t blame my parents for not having another kid, it was their choice. not mind. i am not mad at them. but i do regret not having a sibling and not having memories. i mean…i don’t know like..as a kid i was very attatched to my mother, and i still am, i love her dearly. just i feel so left so. i feel nervous near my family..especially since i don’t feel like family..i just feel like a relative. i feel like a black sheep. like i don’t belong. now whether anyone will read this or not i don’t care. im writing this to express how i feel and to be able to look back…as an only child even today…i don’t have anyone in my family i’d want to talk too. i love my family. they mean the world to me..but i don’t feel like i belong. i’m so different from them..i’m..almost not related to them. Also i told said relative that i dont remember anything past the age of like…10. nothing..everything is a complete blank. i don’t know…hmm…yeah

k…so im writing this, because im pretty bored at the moment. its…12:43 at the moment i wrote that, life…its what you live. incase people didn’t realize that. since the most common of senses have become rocket science to the geniuses of the world. you take one thing and you get something completely different, i used to be bored with life. but i realize who made it boring, confided, now i’m living life, wanna help me? music is vibrant, colors have intensity, money…is still sweet the idiots of the world are more idiotic, and the geniuses are still idiotic. but, it makes me think. right now the song im listening to is very amazing, this may seem like rambling but i think of it has organized sanity. well…for now this is it. imout

=] great fucking night

so i made a tumblr…..idk who im writing to